Saturday, May 30, 2009

Colorado CDL Permit

I got my Colorado CDL permit yesterday, after failing 2 out of 3 tests and retaking them the same day. I failed!? I generally don't fail tests. There was a general knowledge test (50 q's), an airbrakes test (25), and a passenger test (20). I failed general and passenger. I should've passed those and failed the airbrakes'. Weird. In the time up until "Congratulations, you passed this test!" flashed up on the screen for the last two tests, I was freaked out. I feared failing Summit Ministries, since they were the ones paying for it all. I feared continual failure, never being able to take tests again. I feared extrapolation of that failure to other areas of life and not being able to excel at anything. In general, it was scary. I knew I must continue on and get up again. Failure and fear can multiply exponentially to cease life as a whole. Thankfully, God is gracious and supplies strength when needed, even when not needed or noticed. Proverbs 24:16, "For a righteous man falls seven times, and rises again, but the wicked stumble in times of calamity." Now, I only have to go through a four hour driving test...on my own...in a bus...soon...and deal with that fear in order to get my full CDL. Strange how life never ceases to be challenging. Let's not talk about the Marine Corps OCS yet.

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